I call it “The journey” because it is what it is.
Every sub/slave/controlled person thinks that he/she is the only one (person) who’s doing the journey. Even if he/she became aware of the fact that the “Controller” (Master/Sir/Mistress/Madam) does his/her own “campaign” (sometimes physically and sometimes mentally), he/she still tend to forget the fact that every campaign is different and it’s not a computer game. Therefore, sometimes you can find your slave/sub disrespectful and your mind/hand/whip starts to work.
Hence, I have decided to write a bit about my journey.
All my slaves/close friends ask me: “Master/**** how did you start all of this?”
My answer is mainly: “I honestly do not know”.
So I have done a bit of thinking for the “greater good” and found the answer.
Where did it all start?
Well, as I said before (at my first writing) our society divided into two camps: The Hunters and The Hunted.
I have discovered I was the Hunter type at a very young age, I was physically bigger than the rest, good with showing results under pressure, diagnosed with 160 IQ points at third grade and very violent.
The normal Hunter (as a kid) will beat the Hunted because he dislikes him – not me. I was looking like a prey and I was waiting for “strong kids” to come to visit me and they always do (temptation was high). Whenever they came, miraculously, someone broke bones and there was no one to blame for.
A few years later I have discovered porn and “Fetish” category. Under this category, I found “BDSM”…
It is needless to point that porn sites of the past were, mostly, primitive and you could not find a lot of things – that is why “BDSM” was under Fetish category.
…At the same time, I noticed that boys talk about it all (sexuality) before girls, then I started to discover I was abnormal regarding my porn searches and preferences – of course, I didn’t say what I search for. When I was asked about it I would say things were matching to their searches. I was more the listener type and learned what other boys liked.
In those searches I actually found: the educational part, the humiliation, the power to change others, kinbaku/shibari or bondage…just naming those categories makes my heart beat faster and excitement levels to rise…
I have started with porn at age 10 and until 18 I was dreaming about being a Master.
As we all know time passes and passions that haven’t been fulfilled, will (eventually) start to knock on the door. Here I am at age 17, and here comes my first GF, NO, sorry…my first love. I had lots of GFs before but this girl is but she’s really important (<3). I remember she supported me at difficult times in the army, with my near-death experience, with my injury – she suffered with me and suffered from me. This timeline when happiness is the supreme commander, this is what we all seek for (magic and memorable moments). I was truly happy but something was missing, The passion is still knocking on the fucking door (why I am so weird?). Eventually, I could not fight myself anymore – I felt I could not make her my slave (and other side reasons), resulted in making the move…I broke up with her and like they say in movies: “some piece of my heart was left behind”.
This essential part (“The Beginning”) made me the Master I am today: fearless, precise, petting but ruthless and…(I can’t tell you everything – you need to find some by yourselves).
Afterward, It took me a short time to find my first (cyber) slave which I met eventually and led to a better life but this is for the next chapter.
Since then I had slaves from USA/China/Cyprus/Israel – I advise, educated, fly for sessions and I am happy with my successes, on the other hand
I could not achieve all of that without leaving a piece of my heart behind.
“There is no success without sacrifice”